Updates: New Beginnings, New Shows, New Job

So a lot has happened since my last post.

First of all a group of friends and some old teachers of mine planned on doing a show! I was invited to do a role. Unfortunately it's a straight male role, but it's a fun straight male role, so I'm not too disappointed. The show is Urinetown and it's a hillirious Broadway show. I suggest you all Youtube it. It's got complicated chorus bits.

I got a new job at an ice cream store. The place is called Sweet Tooth and its nestled in the center of our small down town. It's cute and I've only had two shifts. A funny story, I couldn't scoop properly until the second day; since after my first shift I was panicing: I wasn't doing it right, I'm failing big time, I'm not learning fast enough, WOW, this bites the big one... etc. So far I've only had a couple of training shifts which were weirdly calm and stressful at the time, which I'm not stranger to, honestly I'm an odd zen-like person.

As for new beginnings, I've found someone that I'd like to be dating, but deep down something in me doesn't want to start something. More on that later. But he's nice, genuine, inviting... and appealing despite what some people may seem. Honestly his picture don't do him any justice. He has a wicked sense of humour, which i admire greatly.

Sometimes though I don't know if my feelings are purely love, or lust. I mean the majority of my relationships are purely sex-based. I mean a man can be the most beautiful man in the world... and I either totally blow it by sounding desperate or not sounding interested enough. I really just don't understand how relationships go. But DO we understand how relationships work? Or is it just some huge delusion of something we feel (men mostly) in our pelvises that makes us think it's love, but once we satisfy it, all it is is just one big messy affair? Or maybe it's just simple, and I'm over analyzing. I have done that a lot. I think that's the downfall of my relationships... and lack of communication. I think I'm giving him space, but then he likes it when I talk to him... Men are complicated sons of bitches.

More updates are soon to follow, but as a wind up to this one: I'm in a show that has to do with peeing, I'm hopefully going to be working full time this summer, AND I may be starting a relationship, but I'm not holding out for anything. Oh! and I almost forgot that I haven't heard anything from university, wether or not I'm in or out of second year. That's just the cherry on top of a beautiful beginning to summer. YAY! O_o *twitch*

Until next time...